Contents Acknowledgements........................................................................1 Introduction....................................................................................3 Chapter 1: The Conflict Joined.....................................................5 Chapter 2: School of Torture........................................................9 Chapter 3: Out of My Element .................................................. 13 Chapter 4: June 1956, King’s College ....................................... 17 Chapter 5: Another Desert ........................................................ 23 Chapter 6: Lost in Lust and Dreams......................................... 29 Chapter 7: A Word from Salman .............................................. 35 Chapter 8: Sharia and Me........................................................... 37 Chapter 9: Lost in Hadith........................................................... 43 Chapter 10: A Son is Born.......................................................... 47 Chapter 11: How Did This Happen? ........................................ 51 Chapter 12: Al-Ghabani’s Visitation......................................... 59 Chapter 13: First Relief and Then . . ........................................ 67 Chapter 14: Can I See the Ghost?.............................................. 73 Chapter 15: Forward? ................................................................. 77 Chapter 16: The Prodigal Returns and the Lamb is Killed ... 83 Chapter 17: The Engagement .................................................... 87